Yet another week has come and gone. I wish I had more interesting stories about my days, but sadly I do not. The one major thing that is going on in my life is something I can’t talk about… I barely got it out with my therapist.

School is school. I am in a beat… constantly busy, but that isn’t a bad thing for me. However, getting everything I need to get done to transfer to university has me uneasy. It is always on my mind and I am terrified I am doing something wrong to screw it up. Tomorrow I am going to call up the university and try to get some guidance so I can put the crazy thoughts in my head to rest… well, at least the crazy school thoughts.

Tuesday I actually started writing a new short story! That was a break through. I haven’t written anything in months. I haven’t finished it, but I am thrilled to have gotten something going again. Honestly, it is because of my Writing class. Just being in a room with others who love writing has gotten me extremely motivated and inspired. I love how on the first day there were almost two dozen students, most thinking the class must be an easy A, but by the second week the class thinned out to 13 or so people who want to be there, which creates such a great atmosphere.

Anyway, I am hoping for some sleep tonight. While I have been getting sleep, it hasn’t been restful sleep. Too many nightmares. That sounds weird… a 20 year old having nightmares. I guess more things than I can count stay with you as you get older. Well, here is hoping to a good night’s rest and a good week ahead.

My body is moving faster than I can think. I had one cup of coffee this morning and this is the effect it has on me. I am not that weak when it comes to caffeine, but the way my Mother makes coffee (one bag per cup!) I am no match. It is no wonder she is always a nervous wreck- she drinks three to four cups of this stuff!

I am going into my third week of classes. It is so strange because it really doesn’t feel like it’s been that long, yet it has. I am still trying to figure out a way to balance all of my work. So far I seem to be fairing alright, I just need to keep it up. I worked out a system where I do all my coming week’s worth of Biology on Friday and Saturday. Then on Sunday I do all my reading for Monday & Tuesday, plus my Algebra homework for the week. That allows me time during the week to type and review my notes, get any other assignments done, and also have free time. The only thing I have yet to work into all of this is personal reading, which may be on hold until I finish this one biography for Western Civilization.

So much other… stuff, is going on right now. I can’t post about it, hell, I don’t even want to talk about it, but it is eating me up inside. I called my therapist, whom I haven’t seen in a while… hopefully I can get an appointment during the week and attempt to talk about what is going on, but even then… I hate what is going and what is being said because it is not the way it seems. Not to mention how people you thought you could trust were always willing to turn on you is an extremely depressing realization.

Anyway, despite the other stuff, I am going to try and say positive this week and do something good for myself. Not sure what yet, but when it comes to me I will know.

First impressions/overview of this coming term:

Western Civilization II: I’m not entirely sure what to say about this class as we really haven’t gotten into anything yet other than the syllabus and one project. I am looking forward to it because I love history. The professor seems rad and the work load is reasonable. I have two papers, one quiz a week, two exams, and he will provide the notes. Pretty sweet deal, no?

Creative Writing/Literary Magazine: I am very happy I signed up for this class. Not only will it help me with my writing, but I also get to produce the campus’ literary magazine. On Wednesday we turn in a 350 word or less reason on why we want to be whichever position. I am opting for the Prose Editor (Fiction and/or Nonfiction) & Art Editor. Apparently no one ever applies for the Art Editor as they usually just expect a ‘writing class’, but I personally would love to sift through pieces of art and what not. Sounds like fun. I kind of already sniffed out some of my classmate’s personalities and think I know who might go for the Chief Editor… I have no desire to strive for that position. Not because of the work load, but I just don’t want that responsibility of having to worry about everyone else on me.

Humanities: Since last term I have been frightened by Humanities because of Professor Brown… so I was (and still am) nervous about this class, especially since it is an honors level one as well. I anticipated the professor to be this small, quiet, petite woman for some reason, but she is far from it, which is totally not a bad thing! Actually her huge, obnoxious personality is very entertaining. And after class yesterday, she started going into things, I found myself not falling asleep or awaiting for class to end, which is a good thing. I already got extra credit in class because I was the first to volunteer to present some random fact from the time period we are covering… it is worth a full 100 points and all we have to do is share the fact with the class and turn it in on a sheet of paper… why people wanted to avoid it is beyond me. I can understand not wanting to get up in front of everyone, but it is such a tiny little thing that to me it seems like something you would just want to get out of the way and get the points for. Anyway, I present mine on Tuesday… I haven’t figured out what I am going to use, but I got this book called Doomed Queens, which has all this interesting information about queens throughout history that have had bad luck… I figure I will just pull something out of there.

College Algebra: When I walked into the class and saw it was a math lab (all work on computers) I started to panic. I have tried doing a math class on the computer once and I failed miserably. I couldn’t keep focused and, yeah, it was just a mess. However, I think I might be alright in this one. I have the same math professor from last term and the way she has the class structured seems like I will be able to work it. Plus, being in a classroom twice a week with a professor and the assistant there really helps- that keeps me focused and seems like it will get my work done. Though, I already need help as I cannot freaking figure out how to find the domain and ranges of functions. Last night I spent almost 3 hours on the homework and that was just something I could not get. On Tuesday I am going to review that section on the computer, but if I still have trouble I am going to have to go to the professor or the tutoring center.

Human Biology: Lastly, I have one online class this term, Human Biology. In my elementary years and in middle school, I never, ever did well in science. It just wasn’t my subject. However, since high school I have always done well in anything relating to biology or anatomy. It is so strange. It was like all of the sudden I just got it or found it interesting. Anyway, this class is fairly easy as I know a good portion of the information, but it is just a lot of written work. That is the thing with online classes, they tend to have much more work due because, and this is just my guess, that since you aren’t in a class being lectured they expect more out of you or something… I don’t know. This professor, though, my gosh, there are assignments due Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Sunday… Tuesday’s assignment is about 30-40 detailed questions on the chapter (which seems like her way of getting us to take notes). Thursday is a vocabulary matching thing, which is fairly easy. Friday is some kind of experiment-like assignment that relates to the text by applying it to something. Then Sunday are quizzes.

Overall, a lot of work, yes, but I think I do better when I have more on my plate.